Sometimes i just wish that i could follow all the stuff in the book. Like an instruction manual which guides you step by step. So that one wouldnt go wrong. But many times, i do not posses such a maual.

Sometimes i wish that i can be more understanding and less sensitive. And you can be more sensitive and less distracting. But it doesnt seem to be the case. In any ways, we do still compromise, give and take(thats what i think). But sometimes i feel like i'm the rower of the boat and you'r the passenger. When i think abt it in this manner, i'd tell myself: 'No, its just me. Its nothing at all.' But after reading the book (secrets abt men every woman shd know by barbara de angelis) i may be totally wrong.

It seems that since man and woman are fundementally different, they are not v different afterall. But then again, when interaction takes place, they are different. Hmphs. Sometimes when i just feel like talking and expressing, i cant seem to do it. I really hope to really quietly talk, w/o any distractions w/o any interferences w/o any disturbances.