Urgh. I knew there's bound to be mistakes when i send by email. See.. there is. I forgot to put my photo in!! Darn. I just hope that they wont be outraged by this little girl who sent 2 emails for job application. And i seriously hope that i get called for any interview soon. Yes. I mean soon. Its quite early to freak out now, but then the one day i'm not confirmed for any companies, the freaked up i'll be. So... hope that i can get over this freakiness soon. Or else, i forseen smthg weird coming. Yes, so now i've resent the mails. Hopefully the ppl reading it would be glad to have me as an intern in their company. Call me for an interview k!!

It had been a rather hectic week. Mind hecticness. I think, i shouldnt be thinking too much. Kills too much brain cells. "dont think too much. thinking too much kills your braincells!" this sentence came out from my mouth a few yrs ago. And now, its coming out of me again...but its directed to me. Uh. Yes yes. At least things are better in place now. Like destin proj, going in circles is fine. But then going around and around and around for many many times is not. But its all swell now. With 2 guys in the grp, manyatimes its rararaaa. But then i would love to join in the talks, but then can happen only with my previousgrp. lalaaa. But its all too early to tell.

Anyways, somebody spent his twentyfirst birthday working. Man. I really hope that in 2 years time, when its that day, i will be having fun. Not working! Seriously, its bad not being able to have the whole birthday day to yourself and enjoy it as much as you can. Not as if you have another chance to celebrate a 21st bday again. You've got to think abt it man, mindy. I still have 3 containers of cheesecake in the fridge. And i've learnt my lesson: nv leave cheesecake out for more than an hr. Or else, it'll be like tou suan. Man, yet another failed attempt with cheesecake. First it was complained as toufu, now its tousuan..whats next?

----btw why am i writing soo much? no one to talk to...

Somethings happened during dinnertime. Its frustrating and sad. After so many yrs, havent they reach a level of compromise? A level of tolerance? Or issit, just living your own way despite all the woohaas abt being tgt? It sorta an obstacle that i've got to overcome, if i ever get married to someone someday.. seriously, we dont live for anyone. We've got to live life for ourselves. And i dont think walking out seems to solve the prob. But can i do smthg? Yess i can. But its hard to bring up this topic to someone who's elder than you. Its like insulting them, that they dont know anything. That they've live our 5decades experiencing nthg? Then why all these childishness? Maybe not childishness... more to understanding. BALANCE. yes, thats the right word.

till the next time i blog..... jia you!